Happiness

That smile was filled with it.

Nightmare

Do you know what it feels like to wake up and knowing it's not like what it used to be?
It's terribly sad...

We are the most vulnerable when we wake up from sleep... Our hearts are at its weakest state... I wake up questioning myself,
"What have I done..."
"Why did I do such things..."
The feeling of security, confidence, and joy that I had felt before is void from my heart...

That's why I don't go to sleep sometimes. I just can't bare the pain when I wake up. Waking up to your own tears is an ugly sight. Especially for a man.

I wake up to feel that the nightmare that I had last night, was better than the reality that I am in.

I can't take it anymore... I can't...
This sorrow is killing me...
 
Dear security,
Dear confidence,
Dear happiness,
Come back to me... I want to be better... Without you I can't... I couldn't...

Terima Kasih, Tuhan

Terima kasih kerana memberi aku peluang hidup...
Terima kasih kerana memberi aku kesenangan hidup...
Terima kasih utk segala nikmat dan rezeki...
Terima kasih kerana menjawab doa hambaMu ini...
Terima kasih kerana menyayangi hambaMu ini...
Terima kasih untuk segala kekuatan yg Kau berikan padaku...
Terima kasih untuk nyawa ku ini...
Terima kasih untuk hati ku ini...
Terima kasih untuk anugerahMu ini...

Hari ini aku tersangat gembira dan tersangat sayu...
Atas anugerahMu yg membolehkan aku utk mencintai hambaMu...

Aku bersyukur...
Kerana Kau memberi aku nikmat kegembiraan dan pilu kesedihan...

Terima kasih kerana memberi aku kekuatan...
Terima kasih kerana menjawab doa ku...

Dan sungguhpun aku sayu seribu kalimah...
Aku bersyukur Kau masih menyayangi ku...
Walaupun aku masih begini...
Sekurang-kurangnya ada hambaMu yg gembira...

Subhanallah...

Layout change

My previous layout was too happy.