Good Night

Good night sleep tight
No more tears
In the morning
I'll be here

And when we say good night
Dry your eyes
Because we say good night
And not good bye

We say good night
And not good bye

Why do we say 'good bye' anyway? What is good in a bye?

No Title

Still trying.

The S word

It does not fix anything.

I'll be

When the time comes once again

I'll be where I was

When it happened once before

For the things that I had at all

They don't help

Caffeine

didn't help me stay up

Paracetamol

didn't rid me of my headaches

Painkillers

didn't rid me of my chest pains

Sleeping Pills

didn't help me sleep

even

Anti-Psychotic Drugs

didn't help me relief my anxiety

Why do I even bother consuming them. My body just don't work with these things. Nothing is helping. Never had even the slightest fever for 2 years before this.

"Look at the bright side. At least nobody cares anymore. You have nothing to lose."

Tiada siapa yang tahu.


takpelah.

Happiness

That smile was filled with it.

Nightmare

Do you know what it feels like to wake up and knowing it's not like what it used to be?
It's terribly sad...

We are the most vulnerable when we wake up from sleep... Our hearts are at its weakest state... I wake up questioning myself,
"What have I done..."
"Why did I do such things..."
The feeling of security, confidence, and joy that I had felt before is void from my heart...

That's why I don't go to sleep sometimes. I just can't bare the pain when I wake up. Waking up to your own tears is an ugly sight. Especially for a man.

I wake up to feel that the nightmare that I had last night, was better than the reality that I am in.

I can't take it anymore... I can't...
This sorrow is killing me...
 
Dear security,
Dear confidence,
Dear happiness,
Come back to me... I want to be better... Without you I can't... I couldn't...

Terima Kasih, Tuhan

Terima kasih kerana memberi aku peluang hidup...
Terima kasih kerana memberi aku kesenangan hidup...
Terima kasih utk segala nikmat dan rezeki...
Terima kasih kerana menjawab doa hambaMu ini...
Terima kasih kerana menyayangi hambaMu ini...
Terima kasih untuk segala kekuatan yg Kau berikan padaku...
Terima kasih untuk nyawa ku ini...
Terima kasih untuk hati ku ini...
Terima kasih untuk anugerahMu ini...

Hari ini aku tersangat gembira dan tersangat sayu...
Atas anugerahMu yg membolehkan aku utk mencintai hambaMu...

Aku bersyukur...
Kerana Kau memberi aku nikmat kegembiraan dan pilu kesedihan...

Terima kasih kerana memberi aku kekuatan...
Terima kasih kerana menjawab doa ku...

Dan sungguhpun aku sayu seribu kalimah...
Aku bersyukur Kau masih menyayangi ku...
Walaupun aku masih begini...
Sekurang-kurangnya ada hambaMu yg gembira...

Subhanallah...

Layout change

My previous layout was too happy.