What will you do?

If you feel like you're the one who's causing problems among other people and that things were perfectly fine until you came along?

Define:Miss

The word miss has many meaning in the English lexicon. Type exactly the title of this post on Google and you will get it's many definition. But the one particular definition that I'm blogging about today is miss; the kind of feeling that you get when you are away from someone (or something). I personally don't know the explanation for this phenomenon. But on my opinion, this is what "missing" are:

What?
Missing someone (or something) is a feeling that is involuntary and need not any effort for it to happen. Missing is the kind of feeling when you want to scream, cry, weep, or any other method of suppressing your feeling. Some people might have other weird and peculiar ways of expressing their feelings of miss towards someone -- or something. some of them may resort on distracting themselves by keeping themselves busy by doing other things that doesn't remind them of the person (or thing) that they are missing. Some people even go as far as lying to themselves that they're not missing that someone (or something) in which, in my opinion, is not healthy because sooner or later they are going to get a personality conflict.

Why?
Well I don't know. We were created to be that way, that could be the simplest answer I guess. The amount of love, affection, attention and attraction you have towards someone (or something) doesn't affect if you will miss the person (or thing) or not, rather the slightest interest can make you miss the person (or thing). This however does give an impact of how much you will miss someone (or something) and for how long you will be in the situation. The absence of the person (or item) even for a while could make us miss them. Since we think that the person (or the item) completes us and that weren't whole if it wasn't for them.

How?
Like I said this phenomenon happens probably because we were created to miss someone (or something). The absence of the someone (or something) we love and care about will make us think a lot of them. How are they doing, are they well, are they with someone else, are they thinking of us, do they even miss us a little, and all sorts of other questions. Questions that may sound a lot like selfishness if spoken out loud. Most of the time missing happens to people who doesn't have anything to distract them from it. It seems that even hobbies aren't enough to cover up the feeling of missing.

When?
When you notice that something is just isn't right without the person (or thing) around. You feel as if everything you do is wrong for some reason and that for some reason you always get distracted from the real case at hands. Also when the event of "missing" happens, you tend to wish to stumble upon the person (or thing, but in this case it's just ridiculous) you miss anywhere you go. The feeling of missing is also amplified when you're in a silent place and lonely. That kind of atmosphere just seem to suit for missing someone (or something).

Where?
Everywhere! The feeling of miss isn't specific at a place. But like I said, being in a lonely place, silent place and even at night will amplify the feeling.

Who?
Every single human that isn't heartless will at some point of their lives miss someone (or something). Perfectly normal. But it's how you tackle those situation of missing is the one that differs you from other people. Whether you go bananas due to extreme case of missing or you keep your cool on hopes for better chances of curing your "missing" is totally up to one person. And not necessarily the feeling is mutual between two person though. Very subjective stuff.

Why I write all of these? I dunno I guess I have too much spare times on my hand and I've been thinking too much. I need to slow down.

Maybe I do miss someone

Don't blame videogames

The article

I saw an article in Harian Metro today and I know I just have to say something about it. It just infuriates me. I thought it was just gonna be another Saturday for me this article is pretty much a flamebait to yours truly.

The front page of Harian Metro today(31st January 2009), is titled, Video games lucah kegilaan budak-budak 7 dosa RM5 (Pornographic video games a hit among childrens 7 Sins RM5). As you all know I'm a gamer and to be seeing such news to published and sold to the masses made me think about the reaction the public will be giving towards videogames that does NOT contain any sexual content. And this was the front page so they are trying to really highlight this thing today. Let's see the title. Wait, video games? Video games??!! It's spelled videogames and minus the 's' if it's a singular.

The game that they're highlighting to contain pornographic material are 7 Sins (thus the headline), Playboy Mansion & The Guy Game. Yes, I wouldn't deny it does contain adult material that wasn't meant for younger audiences. But have you ever heard of ratings? Do you ever notice the little letters below the cover of the game and even for once give a damn what it means? Now, the case as reported in this article talks about kids from primary school which are aged 7 to 12. That means games that are suitable for them would be rated from [E] which stands for Everyone and [E10+] which means Everyone over 10 years old. The ratings are self explenatory but have anyone in Malaysia ever care? Have any parents actually take the time to look at such things before buying such things? Why would you blame the games that you buy for your children that is clearly not meant for your child? And another feud with pirated games in Malaysia is they tend to put and [E] rating for all of their games. That's another problem, but that's where you common sense kicks in. Ever heard of that? Common sense? Looking at the cover of the games and reading the slight description at the back will give you a great idea of what the contecnt of the game will be. Heck even the title could help a lot! For example, 7 Sins. If you are a wary parent and actually know what are the 7 sins in life, you should have known straight away that this game isn't meant for your child (or childish adults). In that case don't buy it! If game ratings were followed thoroughly at the first place and the audience playing it is observed at the first place it this wouldn't be a problem. But in Malaysia, censorship is nothing until something messed up. Do you really see parents restricting their child from watching any 18+ shows on TV? I don't think so. Ok so this problem is not limited only to Malaysia but if you're a good parent and have taught your child why is this wrong and such they would develop a sense of self understanding why this and that. And answer your child if they ask you such questions don't evade it. Be responsible.

Ok back on the article. How come it's now that this thing is brought up? All of the 3 games were released at around the same year if I'm not mistaken which is around 2005. It took them 3 years to see this? You know if this is purely wrong at the first place it would've been banned before it even enters the country. Take for example, Singapore bans Saints Row from being sold for their adult content. So at least they're wary of the hazards earlier but later pulling the ban wagon for reasons I do not know. Oh wait, there are nobody that monitors games in Malaysia. In Malaysia, games aren't being monitored at all. Even if they're the fact billion dollars worth of industry. And I want to quote what's being written by the writer here,"Wartawan Harian Metro yang mencuba ketiga-tiga permainan itu mendapati ia tidak sesuai memasuki pasaran negara ini." Owh so now there are actually someone who controls what games goes in what games goes out of the country? You mean there's actually someone official monitoring what kind of games can be pirated and sold and what games can't? Aaargh I just feel like screaming the heck out of my lungs! Another quote,"Ketiadaan undang-undang khas membendung penjualan dan pengedaran permainan jenis itu membuatkan ia seolah-olah halal dimainkan oleh golongan muda" Owo so now you notice? Only when the games started to spoil people that you want to give your 2 cents about it? How about games as another entertainment industry in Malaysia? We may not be making any videogames anytime soon (although there are actually a few videogame studios in Malaysia) videogames should be stopped taken as a child's play because not all games are meant for them. And don't blame the games for the children being morally worse. Why not blame parental skills? Videogames are just one of the many media that contains negative things but stop saying as if they were the root of evil. It just disgusts me.

Maybe someone from KPDNHEM should consider starting to place videogames on the map in Malaysia. It's not like we won't buy original if it was accessible and easy to find. We wil be saving a whole lot of money if it was locally published too. The problem is original console games costs an arm and a leg. PC Games had a better future in Malaysia though. Although it's still costs a lot and isn't something that we can afford but at least there's a pace. Like it or not, videogames is part of the entertainment in Malaysia although it is dominated by pirated games. Do something. I'm a gamer and I'm sad seeing all the beating received by the games industry. They should be receiving just as much kudos as they received as much thumbs down.

I could go on forverer on this. I think I'll stop here. I'll write more about it later. I'm on a solitary crusade to save videogames. I wouldn't be angered and sadden if the people in Malaysia just react to such problems with better approach rather than just flaming games. Parents do your part. Don't prevent your child form playing videogames if that's their hobby but just keep a close eye on them. But with the current mindset of people, the future of videogames in Malaysia is dim.



Thanks for reading my opinion.

Just my condition

For the people who knows me well enough to know that I think a lot should also know, I simply think too much. Well, too much for a guy my age. I have some gray hair as you all can see. Some people says it's due to excessive thinking and some say it's due to some problems of nutrients deficiency. For professional reasons, I think I'll accept the latter proclamation. I have also developed a supposedly hereditary disease all by myself due to overwhelming pressure and all thanks to me. And also thanks to me, all of my descendant should have this sickness. All because of me. I think you guys should know what disease I'm talking about and the reason this blog is posted is because I want to do something to reduce or even better recover from this. Wouldn't want such things to slow me down. I don't know why that it's just recently that I'm worried of my health conditions. When I was younger I thought stress is just like breathing, you will have to go through it all the time. It seems that I'm wrong. Really wrong. Now I have sudden headaches which isn't fun at all. But as time goes I get use to it. So it's not really much of a problem anymore.

In a nutshell, I need to de-stress, unwind and relax. Probably a nice vacation with a small number of peoples. Maybe even a nice relaxing spa. Don't know if I'll ever have the time to do so but I really want to. Will be even better if I'm doing such activities with people who actually gives a damn about me.

This sickness is serious peeps and I'm not having fun at all. Help me if you could. But on a lighter note, at least I'm still standing. Praise to the God!


Trivia: I'm a Type A person.

2nd sem holiday ending

My 2nd semester college holiday is coming to an end soon. Turns out I did nothing in this holiday. Nothing to unwind and de-stress before my new semester starts. Well. Maybe I might as well bring all the stress forward into my next semester. What else can I do anyway.

Awkward things in life (updated)

Some things in life are just awkward. Here's some that I notice

1. When we look at the clock, sometimes at first it seems like the clock froze for more than a second
2. When we shake our hands with non-malays we're unsure if we should shake our hands or not
3. When we take our hand-shaken hands and place to our chest as a sign of respect to people who doesn't know about this, people will take another look at you
4. Everytime when we are unsatisfied we will sigh
5. When we dream, we dream about the most random things
6. Milo Ice at the restaurant is always better than the one we made at home
7. When we are online, we have no idea what to do, but when we're not, there's a lot to do
8. We find it easy to argue on anything
9. We prefer the American slang rather our actual roots which is British
10. McD's French Fries is better than KFC's
11. Math always seems easier outside of the exam hall
12. It is when we need to hold still that we felt like moving
13. It is when there's no toilet nearby that we need to visit one
14. Instant noodle is the best friend when other food just won't do it
15. People refer to instant noodles as Maggie, regardless of their brand
16. People refer baby diapers as Pampers, regardless of their brand
17. People refer to butter as Planta, regardless of their brand
18. People refer to camera films as Kodak, regardless of their brand
    
19. England, United Kingdom, or Great Britain?
20. Small change after buying stuffs gets abandoned
21. We always don't have money when we saw the thing that we really want
22. Complaints of not having enough rest, but gets bored on holidays
23. Deja Vu
24. Long pause in phone calls
25. Musician always count to 4 before start playing live music
26. When you accidentally answered the "Hi!" dedicated to the person behind you
27. In a shop, when we asked about where things are to another customer who we thought are one of the worker
28. When we hear loud baby cries when we are having fun somewhere such as restaurants and cinemas
29. When we're trying to pass but there's another person right in front trying to give way, it seems that both of us still go in the same way
30. Wearing a cap indoors as if it was hot
31. Wearing sunglasses at night
32. When people asked for burgers with no vegetables at a fast food restaurant
33. When we laugh alone in dead silence
34. When we're the only voice to be heard in dead silence
35. When our jokes aren't funny and it became dead silence
36. People see us talking to ourselves
37. When we sneeze covering our noses but there are mucus coming out and there's no tissue
38. The faces that we make after tasting something extremely sour or salty
39. When you sent messages to the wrong people
40. When you see people pay for things that costs more than a ringgit with just coins
41. When you place your stuff on the other seat in a fully packed bus or train
42. When you noticed that there have been stains on your clothes for a while
43. When you thought you were talking to a friend that was near you only to notice that he/she isn't there
44. When you accidentally got out of your shoes while running
45. When you missed a step going upwards or downwards with people watching
46. When you sat at the wrong chair in the cinema only to be greeted by "Excuse me, that's mine"
47. When you call a person's mobile phone and someone else picks it up
48. When you accidentally switched of the lights in a room with people in it
49. In football, when another player scores, you can see other players touching the scorer
50. When you looked for the item you lost while cursing, only to find out that it's in your pocket
51. When you brought all of the things that you want to buy to the counter only to notice that you don't have enough money
52. When your car's engine dies in a traffic jam and everyone stalls because of you
53. When you find out that the reason of the big traffic jam is just people slowing down to watch another guy stopping by the road of a punctured tyre.
54. When you jump into a conversation only to find out that they're actually talking about something else
55. When you bought an ice-cream and it fell onto the floor
56. When going through the ladies undergarment section in shopping malls
57. When people swear/curse with spelling or grammatical error
    

Of course this doesn't apply to everyone nor all the time but to those who have been in the situation, you'll know. And I'm sure there's more too. Can't seem to recall it right now. Tell me more if you have any!

The importance of deodorants

Deodorant comes in many forms. Some roll on, some sprays. Whatever shape and size it comes in, it has one purpose; to prevent you from stinking! It is very cheap and affordable by everyone even from the most difficult family. It it usually used after a shower.





Now you must be wondering why am I rambling about such things? Well, maybe because...

OH MY GOOD GRACIOUS GOD SOME OF YOU CAN'T FREAKIN' APPLY THIS FREAKIN' CHEAP AND SIMPLE PIECE OF ITEM AND FOR THE LOVE OF GOD YOU STINK!!!


Ehem. Now back to my collected self.
Before I tell you what's wrong, the following description has nothing to do with stereotypes. I believe there's no particular race that is better than another one. It's just whether those of you who don't wear deodorant realize how much you stink!
Ehem.

Now, on one peaceful and shady evening, I'm on my way home by bus. Initially, I'm sitting alone and the bus was pretty vacant too. After going through a few small towns, the bus gets crowded. There are the school kids and there are people. This particular guy sat beside. He emits this particular funk that will make any nose hair fall due to its toxicity. Well, except to his own. If he still have any. He have a bad case of B.O (body odor) and he's sitting beside me! Aargh! I can't breathe properly even and if there's anybody noticing they could see my face being blue due to holding my breath. Half and hour later, I arrived at my destination and took a big exhalation of gratitude and salvation. Huargh!! You know, if you really really don't have money for deodorants, I propose you start saving RIGHT NOW! Ugh. And this problem is of course highlighted among men, but ladies, know your role. Deodorants are essential and if you don't have any then I suggest you stay home! Euw.


In a nutshell,
EVERYBODY STINKS

but if you wear deodorant, that stink wouldn't be smelled so it's fine ;)


P/S: I think the inventor of deodorants should win a Nobel Prize.

Bored at the college

My 2nd last week here for 2nd semester. Can't wait for the holiday. Life is very depressing here actually. I don't have a lot of friends and my only entertainment is my mobile phone. I spend most of my time in the room attempting to study, sleeping or messaging people. Anti-social? Well, probably but we shouldn't put it that way. Huhu. All of my assignments are done, final exam preparations are underway. Just waiting for time to come for me to get some holiday. I need recuperate with my hobby. Hehe.


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